Estoy pensando en dejarlo

You'll be scared, but you won't know why... "I'm thinking of quitting." Once this thought comes, it stays. It is always present. Always. Jake and I have a real connection, a weird, intense attachment. How long have we...? One month? I'm very attracted to him, even though he's not really handsome. I am going to meet his parents for the first time, at the same time that I am thinking of leaving him. Jake once said that "Sometimes a thought is closer to the truth, to reality, than an action. You can say anything, you can do anything, but you cannot fake a thought." And what I'm thinking is that I don't want to be here. I am thinking of quitting.