La hija pequeña

My name is Fatima Daas. I am the mazozia, the youngest, the little daughter. My father expected me to be a boy. I am French, of Algerian origin. Practicing Muslim. A girl from Clichy who spends more than three hours a day on public transport. A tourist. A neighborhood girl who observes Parisian behavior. I am a liar, a sinner. As a teenager, I am an unstable student. As an adult, I am a super misfit. I write stories to avoid living my own. I have been in therapy for four years. It is my longest relationship. Love was taboo at home, expressions of tenderness, sexuality too. I believe I am a supporter of polyamory. When Nina appeared in my life, she did not know at all what she needed or what I was missing. My name is Fatima Daas. My name is that of a symbolic character of Islam. A name that cannot be messed with. In my house, to dirty is to dishonor. I don't know if I am worthy of my name.